I don’t know....

... where this blog will end up. God has made some major changes in my thinking. He recently said, "It will be done unto her because of her faith." I took it to mean one thing; He meant it to mean something else. It took a while, but He finally got me to understand. I wasn't being rewarded for my faith - He was giving in to me. Like Hezekiah. And we all know how he ended up.

Over the past few weeks God has been talking, showing me things - the way He meant His words to be understood, the way situations need to be. I was told to remember what happened after His crucifixion. The promises were still there despite the circumstances, and He would be able to turn things around. Most recently, He told me the promises have to be on His terms. That was the part I couldn't accept until now. He was easing me into something I didn't want to face.

I was finally able to realize that the the promises were contingent on certain events happening, certain conditions being met. If those things failed to come about, the promises would still hold, but not in the way I'd imagined. He would have another plan - equally good - maybe better. Just not exactly what I had been praying for. He showed me that the conditions were not being met, and it was time to hand over the promises to Him to enable Him to do what was necessary.

This past Sunday He said this, "The promises still stand, but because of your understanding you've freed Me to do what I need to do." Because of my faith I would have gotten what I'd prayed for - eventually - but it would've ended badly. And God has much better plans ahead.

In some ways it's bittersweet. I saw (and still see) great potential - but after much prayer, effort, and time passed, that potential is still being wasted. The same mistakes and stupid decisions are being made. The same deceptions are being carried out. I don't know that any real ground was gained. The latest facade won't last for long. It never does. Unfortunately, many years will probably pass before the potential is ever met, and people shouldn't be made to wait for that to happen.

I'll deal with that disappointment another day. I'll still pray, probably shed more tears, and in the end, it will be all right. God will take care of it. But in terms of the promises I've been waiting for, I'm letting go. God has something better.

Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.